NFTY... [12 Oct 2004|12:17pm] [ mood | indescribable ] [ music | PLJ ] Wow. I haven't updated since the summer but after this weekend I think I must. NFTY NAR your are amazing! Every person, and every moment made this weekend just so incredible! The impact this region has had on my life is incredible. I miss everyone so much and I have creid a couple of times but I know what I need to do is be grateful that it happened instaed of sad that it's over. I LOVE NAR!!! *Can't wait for Cornell this weekend! post comment

It's all so good... [06 Sep 2004|08:44pm] [ mood | In Love ] [ music | Radio ] Last week I hung out with every1 and their mom it was amzing! Sleep over with Ivus, movies with Ivus, Mattie, and Sherman, sleepover with Andrea, then school ppl get 2gether with Lizzie, Irina, Maria, Andrea, Jane, and Jen. What an amzing week I love my friends! This weekend was fucking fantastic! I love my boyrfriend so much it's honestly ridiculous. I went to Cornell this weekend and it was beyond incredible! Friday Rob took me for a walking tour and we watched teh sunset over the hill, it was beautiful. Then we went to a couple parties which was fun. Rob's firends are amazing!!!Saturday we layed around all day and then went on a little date. Sunday we layed around some more and hung out with Rob's awesome friends some more. I went home this morning more confident in my love for Rob and in our relationship then ever before. I'm going back over Rosh Hashana but for now I'll hang out with my mazing friends and enjoy my amaizng life. :)!!!!!!!! 2 comments|post comment

It's ok... [20 Aug 2004|12:06am] [ mood | content ] [ music | PLJ ] I'm feeling better. We talked. I love him. It is going to be okay and my life is still fabulous! post comment

[19 Aug 2004|08:36pm] [ mood | sad ] [ music | Olympics ] He's gone. I'm so emotional right now I hate it. I'm sad he's gone, I'm scared he'll stop loving me, but I'm so happy for him that he gets to go b/c I know how bad he wants this. I just keep telling it's going to be okay. I know we are going to be okay but I'm still sad. post comment

Wow.. [15 Aug 2004|07:37pm] [ mood | indescribable ] [ music | Olympics ] Since I've been home my life has been amazing! This has been the best summer ever! Alumni and Trip Day were great. Saw some labbies...wanna see more. But mainly I've been chillin with Rob. He's my best friend and my boyfriend and he leaves for Cornell on Thursday. I know its all going to be okay but I'm still sad. I'm gonna miss him so much. Thank God my life is so great and my friends are so awesome. NFTY and my Labbies that I love will keep me happy! I still wish he didnt have to go but I'm happy for him and I know he's going to have an amazing time. 1 comment|post comment

Life... [03 Aug 2004|10:30pm] [ mood | smiley ] [ music | Sex and The City ] It has been over a month! Where do I begin? KUTZ! Words can't describe! I made teh most incredible friends and had the best session of my life! Bayit 3 was honestly the greatest cabin ever! EM3, the "group", reg bo track, veryone and everything made my summer amazing! Life at home has been pretty wonderful as well. Rob and I picked up where we left off and things have only gotten more wonderful then they were before. Leaving Kutz was hard but coming home to my love made the transition a bit easier. Can't wait to chill with school and NFTY ppl when they get home. Seeing Muffin 2morrow!!! AAAHH! Saturday is gonna be awesome!! Alumni Day then G-Spot is sleeping over. *If any1 wants to give me a ride to kutz please tell me!!* I miss my kutz but home is nice. 1 comment|post comment

Bye... [23 Jun 2004|09:40am] HAVE A GREAT SUMMER EVERYONE! Write me at Kutz! I'll miss u all like woah! 1 comment|post comment

It's been quite a week... [12 Jun 2004|02:51pm] [ mood | bouncy ] [ music | Radio...PLJ...Lizzie introduced me and im addicted ] Last weekend was prom, it was incredible. I felt so pretty :). I got Rob 2 dance! Then we were supposed to go on this casino boat after prom but once we saw it we were like this is sketch. So Rob and I and another couple left all our friends on the boat and took our strech hummer in our gowns and tuxes to McDonald's...it was fuckin awesome. Then we slept at Rob's friend Derek's hosue which is lke a freakin mansion and went swimming in his pool and hot tub, it was one of the best nights of my life. Then we went to Woody's on Sat which was lots of fun. Then Schneid's on Sunday. (TRES!). Superb weekend. I went to Rob's on Wed. to sleep over since Thurs. was his grad/bday. We had lots of fun! He loved his present...yay! Graduation was really nice I cried...I love that boy. Then last night was a pool party at Derek's. Sooo fun! I'm starting to really feel a part of Rob's group of friends. They got one of those giant jumpy castles...sooo cool. We swam, used the castle, played dance dance revolution, used teh sauna, and had a great time. Tonight is board bonding. I'm looking fiward to it. Hopefully it wont make me to tired since I saved all my work for tomorrow. Schnied is on his way over and we are gonna hang out qand have lunch b4 the sleep over tonight. GG...gotta get Schnied. 1 comment|post comment

When did it all get so good... [31 May 2004|04:28pm] [ mood | In Love ] [ music | Full House :) ] It's been forever, where do I begin... Last weekend...amazing! Danielle and i went to her country house, and it was by far the most relaxing and wonderful weekend I've had in a while. This weekend was also fabulous. Friday night Rob came over and we went 2 see Shrek 2, sooo funny. Then we baked cookies and had batter fight, it was gross but so fun. Saturday was Mir's partay which was so fun, i got a chance 2 chat with a lot of ppl I missed so that was great. Then Ivy, Hailz and I slept at Ivy's house. Thanx for a great night girls, I needed a girly night! Ivy as always I lovey u more then life, and Hailz I'm so glad we bonded this weekend I love u girl! Sunday I did work during the day and bought Rob's bday/grad present...which is amazing but I dont wanna say what it is in case he reads this. Then I went over to Rob's...I love him. Today I'm just relaxin and goin 2 dinner with Nomi, yay! 3 comments|post comment

It's been a while... [18 May 2004|09:09pm] [ mood | Smiley ] [ music | Oldies rock! ] I just realized it's been 4ever since I've updated so I thought it was time. Life has been really great! I got my first straight A report card in a while...woo hoo! After projecting a 1200 as my highest SAT score I got a 1320!!! This weekend was fantastic. I cut Friday afternoon aka Social Action and spent the afternoon with Rob which was of course fantastic. Then we went to the SOFTY Shul-in. I had more fun at services tyhen I've evr had like ever. Schnied, Isak, Danielle, Zippy and I did a slilent cheer wave, got Lyle to silent cheer, Schnied made a friend (aka the old woman next to him) and basically I've never laughed so much at a service ever. Lyle rocks! The rest of the night was awesome also. Song session was fun since Danielle and I ran around making fools of ourselves. Scott Hertz is amazing!! Ivy was a hotty! ROb and I so won both Coke and Pepsi and the mummy wrap, regardless of what Hailey and Dan and Willy and Farbs have to say about it! Saturday was, well sucessful. Rob and I napped all day. Then my rents came over to meet his rents for dinner. I was sooo scared but everything went really well! We played trivial pursuit and sadly the Tanabaums wooped the Friedmans but we'll get em next time. Monday afterschool Rob came over which rocked! Best Monday ever! Today Danielle and I had our first fight in a while but we made up and I love her more then ever! I bought prom shoes...woo hoo! Sweetest thing ever...Rob and my song is Stand By Me....today he left a message for me when I was at school. Stand By me came on the radio and he put the phone up to the radio and played the whole song for me. I love him. 2 comments|post comment

It's all okay... [09 May 2004|04:11pm] [ mood | thoughtful ] [ music | Evan and Jaron, they're addictive! ] To live a happy life is to live without regret and to look past the drama in our lives. NFTY has taught me this and I am so grateful for this lesson. Everyone in my life is amazing but nobody is perfect. Some people are so busy, some people can't seem to find their smie, some people don't know how to use a shower, but everyone has so many great qualities about them. I am not perfect either, and thank God for that if I was perfect I would have no where to go from here. Installations was incredible. I felt so loved and privledged to be a part of the NAR community. As I looked out at the smiling faces and teary eyes of my region I realized how lucky I am to have had this experience and to have a year to continue to love and live every minute of it. Mattie - the yearbook is amazing and so are you, never forget it! Fab 4 - thanx for Friday, I may have seemed a bit out of it but i truly love and admire all of you. It's all okay, in fact it's all great, whatever is next for all of us will be awesome, and what's next for NAR will be incredible. 2 comments|post comment

Transitions [27 Apr 2004|05:31pm] [ mood | contemplative ] [ music | Evan and Jaron...my loves ] The past couple weeks my emotions have been in a knot and I'm just starting to untie them. My life has become all about transitions and I'm finally ready to write about the emotional rollercoaster I've been on. Spring conclave was about letting go and moving on. Both these things are extremely difficult to do. So many of the people I love are leaving. Three years ago NFTY and many of the people I'm saying good-bye to saved my life. If it wasn't for them I might still be the depressed and abused girl I was years ago. The love and support of these friends help me to leave a dangerous chapter of my life and embrace the most beautiful new one. However saying good-bye to these friends is not saying good-bye forever because their love and guidance will be with me forever. At friendship circle I cried b/c I had to say good-bye but I also cried out of joy when I looked around and saw all the wonderful people that will be with me next year. I am looking foward to a beautiful future with friends new and old, and friends I haven't even met yet. NFTY isn't over, one era is, but a new one is beggining. I have to say good bye to my board. The nine of us are very differnent people who deffinetly don't get along about everything but we truly love each other. This increible group of people has helped me feel more important and special then I ever thought possible. Elections were tough. I'm not going to lie, losing was hard to take. But I've realized how lucky I am and as much as I wanted to be PVP I couldn't be more excited to be MVP. I'm going to be the best MVP I can be and love every minute of it! I can't wait to work with my new board. We are going to fight, laugh, cry, smile, and love but most imporatnly we are going to do amazing things for NAR. I can't wait! Saturday I'm taking the SAT. I'm not so scared of the test but more of what is asscoaited with it. My whole life I've always considered the SAT something so far in the future that I'll take when I'm older. Well, now I'm older and that scares me. Part of me wants to go to Never Never Land and stay a kid forever. The other part of me knows that with growth comes the best parts of life. It's weird as we grow life becomes more and more complicated and more and more exciting. I'm scared to take this test and enter a new chapter of my life but I'm also ready. I get to be a senior, I get to vote, I get to go to college, and I get to live my own life. It's time to grow up, yikes. Rob and I are also in transition. We are not and will never be back at the beggining. I no longer get nervous everytime I see him or spend hours getting ready hoping he'll think I'm pretty. It's hard to move on from that exciting part of our realtionship but where we are now is so much more incredible. I don't have to spend hours getting ready hoping he'll think I'm pretty b/c I know he will. I've nevr gotten to the "middle" before. Craig and I had no middle just a beggining and an end. With West everyday was a beggining and an end. This new part of a relationship is scary but so sensational. I have gone from being an "I" to being a "we." When people ask me to hang out I alwayts reply with "I'll have to see what we're doing." Being a "we" is scary b/c we are really becoming one entity, one beautiful thing. Two lives are merging into one. Don't get me wrong I'm still my own person, but for the first time I have found someone I love enough to share my life with them. I love Rob so much, that sometimes it literally makes me cry. The idea of us ever not being together scares me. I love him so much I can't understand how he could possibly love me as much in return. Through my entire life I've always spent all my relationships afraid of the end and I've never really been able to enjoy what I have. For the first time, I am not going to be scared anymore. I don't know what's going to happen with us next but I do know my love for him grows with each and every moment I see, talk to, or think about him. I have faith this growth will not end for a long time, maybe eevn never. This faith is enough because with the combination of faith and love we can make it through anything. I know many people probobaly didn't want to read this unbelievabley long entry but if you did read it I hope you read it with care b/c it expresses all my fears something that is very difficult and important for me to put into words. 6 comments|post comment

[25 Apr 2004|08:56pm] Not much time to update... Life is great! We made it through our first fight an I am more in love then ever! This weekend was fabulous! Haliz, bonding rocked! Fab 4 as usual u guys make my life wonderful! And every1 else I love u!! 4 comments|post comment

Icky... [22 Apr 2004|05:07pm] [ mood | icky ] [ music | Oldies ] Rob and I had our first fight today, it made me sad. I've never been angry at him before and I don't like how it feels. We're in the process of making up but I'm still upset and I hate fighting with him. Still waiting for a call from her. I put so much time into a friendship with her and she can't even make time 2 talk 2 me! Today is icky but at least it's pretty out. Leave me happy comments to cheer me up. 6 comments|post comment

It's all okay... [20 Apr 2004|06:17pm] [ mood | rejuvenated ] [ music | Oldies, they make me happy ] Yesterday life was tough but today its not as tough. With sad endings come great begginings. I'm looking foward to working with my new board and my new region. I'm looking foward to continuing my great relationship with Rob, and learning ot love all the new challanges we will face together. To everyone in NFTY from years past, now, and years ahead thanx for making my life so incredible. post comment

[19 Apr 2004|07:06pm] I'm trying to smile but I feel like a dynasty is over. I can't belive so many amazing ppl will never be at anotehr conclave. I'm looking foward to next year but right now I'm not ready to let go. My boyfriend and I are no longer a NFTY couple, but I know are love is strong and will last far into teh future. My friends from before the weekend and my friends I made this weekend will be dearly missed. I love you all. "Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened." 1 comment|post comment

Busy vacation... [13 Apr 2004|08:53pm] [ mood | sleepy ] [ music | Outkast ] So where'd I leave off. Sleep overat Rob's on Saturday wa sfun. We played pool, I was bad but it was fun. The we just layed around the hosue. It sound boring but honestly nothing in the worl makes me happier. Sunday at Ivy's was soo fun! Ivy, Rob and I played Steph, Dan, an dlil Farber in basket ball which was amaizng. We all watched cheaoer by the dozen. Then Ivy and and I had one of our usually amazing talks. Then we all sat around for girl time whcih was super fun. I love girl time it's when uc an talk about anything! Monday I took an SAT and didn't score as well as I would have liked and cried btu I'm okay now. Then went to syracuse to seond the night. Today i toured syracuse and i am in love!! I'm looking foward to the weeken dbut I'm so nervous and I still have sooo mcuh to get done. Good news though Sam and I r an amazing team and our program in finshed woo hoo!! I luv her! Shout out to Miriam I know life is hard rigt now but I promise it'll all be okay! 5 comments|post comment

Life is busy but wonderful.... [10 Apr 2004|03:29pm] [ mood | busy ] [ music | Evan and Jaron (my new obsession!!) ] College visiting was lots of fun!! Lizzy and I had a party finding our ways around DC. I didn't like GW,I realized I need a campus, and it was way to political for me. I did, however, love Maryland and Deleware, and I'm really looking foward to seeing Syracuse on Tuesday. It already has one plus that no other colleges I'm looking at has, it's close to Cornell, aka close to Rob. Last night was sooo fun! Rob came over when I got home and we went to Jake's for din din. The fab 3 was rockin out but we missed our beautiful forth member! Ivy was looking fine in her cheese hat and even hotter when she couldn't keep her pants on, haha! Maddie and I did our best to assit her though, :). It was nice to see evryone there, I hadn't seen some ppl there in 4ever, like Steph and to my surprise Wes. After din din Rob and I went back to my house and ha a lovely night. Tonight I'm sleeping at Rob's and tomorrow we are going to Ivy's which I am sooo excited for! That's it for now, sooo much to do, conclave is in a week, ahhhh!!! 2 comments|post comment

Happy passover!! [06 Apr 2004|01:07am] [ mood | sleepy ] Haven't posted in a while!! Tonight I went to an orthodx seder, it was looooooong, so it's late and I can't make this entry to long. This weekend was amazing! Ivy and Schneid Schnied rock my world! Oh and I lkuv our firends, aka scary little group boys we played with in the arcade! Rob and I had an amazing weekend. It was an intense week for both of us and it was nice to find comfort in eachother. Last night Andrea and I went out and as usual it was a party!!! I miss every1, and I can not belive spring is sooo soon. I'm bring Rob to meet the fam at passover seder number 2 tommorow and I;m both very excited and veryu nervous. But I know he'll do great, everyone who meets him loves him, especially me! 1 comment|post comment

A couple things... [30 Mar 2004|04:29pm] [ mood | contemplative ] [ music | Alicia Keys ] A couple things... Sam - I'm sorry things can't work out for Friday, I hope you know I really tried, and I love you! Ivy - Thanx for the talk gurl it was just what I needed. NFTY - I love you! Things aren't perfect right now but our relationship is strong and we can make it through everything. 1 comment|post comment

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